WORKING MOMMAH NO MORE!!!! Yes, I finally took that leap of faith and resigned from my job so I could fully take care of my little one. It was one of the toughest decisions I had to make, but there’s never a moment that I regret it. Teaching was my dream job and my passion since I was a kid, but it’s also my dream to become a mother. I prayed so hard for this miracle, I don’t want to put all my time and energy into teaching kids but missing my baby’s milestones. As other mothers would say, they’re only a baby once.
But there’s something you should know. Being a SAHM (stay-at-home-mom) is not as easy as you think. The transition from being a working mommah to a full time sahm is somehow challenging too. I’ll admit it, I miss working. I miss being in the classroom. I miss the paperwork, the class interaction, and all the things that come with teaching profession. As we all know, being a mom and wife at the same time comes with tedious responsibilities, so I thought of my day job (a preschool/elementary teacher) as a break from all the mommy and wifey duties.
At home, being a yayaless SAHM, the work never stops. There’s always something to do, something that needs to be done, something to clean up, just something to keep you moving. The social life gradually lays low, the time for social media is cut short, seldom me time and less time for sleep. The routines need to be changed and make room for new ones.
Back when I was still working, I would always worry about my baby when I’m at work. I would think about him constantly, about what he’s doing, is he well taken care of, is he eating or sleeping properly, and all that. Every day, I always pray that time would go by faster so that I could go home to my family. But you know what’s the downside in that? Whenever I’d come home, I am already so tired and drained that my patience has almost ran out. When I come home, I would play with my baby for a while, but I would get mad easily whenever he cries or throws tantrums on me. I couldn’t control myself even if I tried. At night, I always end up feeling guilty for not being patient enough. This was the hardest part for me. Imagine being away from your baby all day and when you come home, he just wants to play with you and be with you all the time, but you’re tired so you get irritated with his little requests that requires you to exert a lot of energy.
So now that I am now a full time stay at home mom, I have realized that I got a lot more work to do. It is not as easy as you think it is. Now, I’ve got to deal with more crying, more tantrums, poop explosions, cleaning up toys scattered all over, chasing a toddler, re-folding the clothes I’ve just folded, constantly grabbing my little one before he could put his finger in the electric fan and many more! But alongside with that, I also get unlimited kisses, cuddles, hugs, laughter and playtime with my son. I also get to see his milestones first-hand (he’s finally walking straight and I was there to witness his first steps, first falls, and as he was trying to get his balance, he would look at me in the eye, smiling, as if saying ‘I got this mom, ‘coz I got you!’) and nothing beats that… Not the me time I get whenever I’m on break at work, not the time I get to do my passion which is to teach, not even the salary I get every 15th and 30th of the month. Nothing beats the feeling of being there for your child and witnessing him explore and learn on his own.
This is the reason why I’ve never regretted giving up my work. This is the reason why I will never regret putting my career aside so that I could nurture my son. This is why I will never question my decision to leave behind my passion so I could make the most out of the days when my son would still go to me for comfort and for almost everything.
Aside from being a mommah, I am also a wife. I get to do my wifey duties all day looooong. Tiring, yes. Fulfilling, YES!!! I get to cook meals for my husband and my son. I get to wash my son’s clothes and fold all our clothes. I get to clean up after their mess (dirty plates, scattered toys, etc.). I know this might seem boring and uninteresting to most people, but I like doing these things for my family. Growing up, my sister and my lola did everything for me at home. So now that I have my own family, I want to be able to do this for them. I feel so independent and so mature, lol! But the best part is that I also get to spend my everyday with my husband who is working from home! Yes, I am that clingy wife. Hehehe!
Anyway, there may be things we have to give up for now and life may be a little hard, but every sacrifice is worth it when you witness your child’s development and see them grow into wonderful young kids. Time flies fast when you’re having fun, so I’m just going to make the most of it!
Happy mother’s day to all moms out there! 💕💖
Disclaimer: Phases of a Mother’s Love is a Mother’s Day special blog series to remind all moms and moms-to-be (and even dads!) that there are no perfect parenting strategies. We may all differ in the ways we discipline and parent to our child, but our end goals are all just the same: to bring up a kind, respectful and God-fearing child to make this world a little better place.
This Mother’s Day special blog series is a project of Pinay Mommy Bloggers — a Facebook support group for mommy bloggers all over the Philippines and even abroad. It is a group born out of a need for support, inspiration, information, and camaraderie among mommy bloggers.
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